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host - email - older- newest - profile - notesthe absence of love 2009-10-18 - 9:16 a.m. I recently watched the movie "Peaceable Kingdom" again, and after 2 emotional meltdowns at precisely the same moments I had them last time, I immediately stopped eating beef and chicken. Again. Eventually, I'll make up my mind. Overall, I think most meat is unpalatable, but whenever I eat it, for the most part I pretend it's something else, like an illusion. Almost without exception I do this, especially with chicken and turkey, so I was glad to give them up again. I know it doesn't make a lot of sense to eat something you're only merely tolerating, but then neither do some butch lesbians who say they hate men but insist on looking and dressing like them. Could be social conditioning. During the time I was a practicing vegan in the past, dining with my family could be especially painful. One winter I flew back to NY and went out to eat to an Italian place with one of my brothers and his family. The food was really good, especially if you were eating it, not just remembering eating it. I was only eating raw uncooked food at the time, and so I vaguely remembered that the place didn't have avocados, so I brought one from the store and put it in my salad right there at the table. I could have sucked it up and ate the lettuce by itself, but it was really cold outside and I didn't have a lot of fat holding me together as it was, as clearly evidenced by the looks on my nephews' faces after they hugged me hello and stared blankly through me like I was an apparition. I only slightly embarrassed the remainder of my family when the waiter did a triple take after he saw the avocado on my salad, looking like a second rate criminal accomplice. But war is not the only thing people have to prepare for around these parts. Anyway, my boss lent me that movie back then because a) he was a vegetarian, b) I was a new vegetarian and c) I think he felt that together we could enforce some kind of New World Order at the company. "Here, take this home, and then we're going to make everybody watch it."
Ten minutes after watching the movie I did a quick-pose and said to him: "Who am I?" "You're - a chicken that's just been saved from the hatchery!" He's really good at techie stuff, as well as guessing my character imitations. As a possible side effect of seeing this movie again, I've become very active in my own community, taking photos of our neighboring river, where "someone" has been decapitating little goat babies and roosters and leaving them there. I don't pretend to understand it, but I do tell people about it. Nobody should have to be decapitated for the sake of religion, or for any other reason. Plus, as someone pointed out - it's littering. I've started a new blog which chronicles this mess, but it's really depressing, not at all like this one, so uplifting and airy and light.
I had a huge birthday party at one of the Sales guy's houses a couple of years ago, and asked him if his band would play. I forget what he was doing in the eighties, but his newest group was a surprisingly awesome and spot-on Led Zeppelin cover band. About one hundred of my friends showed up too, some of them with their own instruments. It would've been a great party if you were watching it on television, from another country. Some of my girlfriends set up a nice bar outside so that I could drink appropriately after a 12 year hiatus. That wasn't my best idea. Many of the Sales guy's friends showed up too. It was like a musical show down. None of my friends' styles matched the house band A friend of mine felt he should go up and join the Zeppelin band and play harmonica and sing along, and while I thought he did really well, I don't think the band's lead singer thought so, glaring at him from the couch. Needless to say it was a clash of the vibes, and Sometimes everything lines up. It's perfect, because you can feel it. You look around and you're in an abandoned town somewhere 1000 miles from home where life is falling apart and living is desperate, and maybe you're not, so you hang out a little to make it better. You feel like everything is okay because you're supposed to be there, drinking tap water and eating moss. And then some other times, you end up at a perfectly constructed event, where everything is in its place, and glasses sparkle and people have hip threads, undeniable talent and irreverent eyes; but for the life of you, you can't connect with any of it. And doing that enough, you could so easily lose your head. previous - next |